It feels nice to learn new things, but it is a painful process.

  I try to learn how to swim. I can move very little. And I haven't even started to learn how to swim in my tail. So it feels simultaneously like a little progress and a little regress.

  I try to learn how to speak the Merfolk Sign Language. However learning to speak something so unlike any nguage you know is slow. And I don't even have anyone I could talk with. It feels like I'm alone talking to myself.

  But I can't give up. I want to transition however I can. I'm sure of it.