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5 - Marias - Pt. 3 - Between Breaths

  The garage door rattled and clanked its way up. David eased the car in and cut the engine. From inside, Lobo’s barking exploded—frantic, tail-thumping chaos.

  He opened the door just in time for seventy pounds of fur and love to barrel into his legs.

  “Easy there, buddy,” he laughed, rubbing Lobo’s ears. The dog wiggled and licked, his whole body vibrating with joy. That familiar warmth—tail, paws, that stupid happy face—eased the anxiety pounding in David’s chest. For a moment, he didn’t feel alone.

  With time to kill before Francis arrived, he sat down at his desk and pulled up the site.

  Francis’s site.

  His favorite trans support page. A lifeline of strangers who knew exactly what it was to live between breaths, between selves. Posts, advice, pictures—he’d been part of it for years. Lurking more than posting lately.

  He scrolled.

  Photos filled the screen—some awkward, some radiant. A girl with bright purple lipstick laughing into the camera. A trans man grinning next to his first testosterone injection—nervous, proud, and glowing. Someone in their kitchen in a velvet dress, holding a cup of tea like the world made sense.

  David’s throat tightened.

  He loved seeing them—loved the joy, the hope, the normalcy. And it hurt. Because he knew that feeling too—the flutter of rightness when he wore the clothes that matched who he was. The weightless click of something aligning.

  But joy had always come with a price.

  Shame. Fear. Loss.

  Every happy image lit something in his chest… then reminded him of what it had cost. His marriage. His family. The way she’d looked at him—liar—when he finally told the truth.

  He scrolled again.

  And stopped.

  A white sweater dress. Long sleeves brushing the wrists. His body. His smile—hesitant, but real.

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  He stared at it.

  The username beneath the photo read: Raven_13.

  He’d almost forgotten that post.

  He remembered the hush of the house. The way the knit clung just enough. The quiet, trembling rightness of it. He remembered choosing the name. Not David. Not anything close. Raven. A name born of change—like the bird itself, always watching, always shifting. In Celtic myth, ravens meant transformation. Rebirth. The end of one life and the beginning of something else. It had felt right, even then, though he hadn’t known why. Maybe some part of him—older—had remembered.

  For a flicker, he felt it again—that stillness. That possibility.

  Then, from the corner of the darkened screen, a faint reflection caught his eye.

  A figure. Almost like his—but softened. Slimmer. Longer hair.

  He blinked.

  Gone.

  His breath caught.

  Then the shame hit.

  Hard.

  The image blurred. He wiped his eyes, furious at the tears, but they kept coming—hot and relentless. That sharp twist inside—the one that always followed the joy. The one that told him he didn’t deserve to feel good in his own skin. That he’d ruined everything by wanting.

  "Not again," he muttered, slamming the laptop shut like it had burned him.

  He stumbled to the fridge, yanked out a beer, cracked the top. Two gulps. Gone.

  The second beer went down slower, bitterness catching in his throat. Still no relief.

  He slumped back into the chair, rubbing his face with both hands.

  Lobo followed—no longer bouncing. He dropped beside David with a soft clink, laid his chin on his paws, and stared.

  David kept his eyes down. His gaze drifted to the gym bag he’d tossed on the side table after cleaning out his locker.

  The necklace. He took it out.

  It was cold to the touch—heavier than it looked. Silver chain, darkened with age. The pendant was a strange, almost arc shape—more intricate than he noticed at first glance. He turned it over in his fingers.

  There were symbols etched into the back—faint, worn smooth by time and touch. But the moment he saw them, something stirred.

  He went to the kitchen for another beer, and on the way back stopped at his laptop. Something tugged at his mind, cutting through the buzz he was building.

  Curious, he reopened the laptop and returned to Francis’s site—needing distraction, he told himself.

  The screen lit up again. In the corner—something he hadn’t noticed before.

  The same symbol.

  His stomach dropped.

  Had it always been there?

  He hovered the cursor. The emblem pulsed—like breath caught in a hush.

  He let out a breath and stood.

  The pendant was still in his hand.

  He took a long pull from his beer and felt it hit—warmth spreading, legs just a little unsteady.

  Not wanting to test himself further, he crossed the room and fell into the lounge chair. Lobo followed and settled at his feet.

  The caw of a raven echoed—everywhere, and nowhere.

  Then—

  The light in the room shifted.

  A faint crackle drifted in from nowhere. The scent of smoke touched his nose.

  Lobo’s ears perked. A low growl rose in his throat.

  David looked down.

  The pendant pulsed, warm against his skin.

  He blinked—

  And the room vanished.

  Thanks for reading.

  This chapter marks a turning point for David—not just in his arc, but in the magic that surrounds him. The appearance of the raven, the pendant, and the old photo aren’t just triggers; they’re echoes of something long buried.

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