Before Harrn can answer, Tiff inserts himself into the conversation, his tone exasperated, “Don’t fall for it, Dad.”
I turn to the younger dwarf. “Come here and let me pinch your cheeks!” As I reach for him, Tiff pulls back and disappears into his illusion. “Little rascal...” I hear him start cackling from all around.
“I shall choose to interpret your actions as those driven by concern and not by doubt, Belhir,” Harrn says. I detect a hint of hurt in his tone. Tiff appears back into reality. Far away from me.
I reply, “Concern. It is concern. Taking a life is a slippery slope.”
“I have taken many lives,” Harrn says. Tiff and Nilla lower their gazes, frowning slightly.
“So have I.” All three look at me in surprise. I repeat myself, “Taking a life is a slippery slope. It makes things so much easier.” I snap my fingers. “The problem is gone. Justice. Morality. Actions and consequences... You can debate these topics until the universe ceases its march, and you will never find the single correct answer. The answer that solves everything. Such an answer does not exist. We can only strive to be better. And today, you showed me just that.”
Nilla speaks out, her voice soft and quiet, “You were never going to let him die, were you?”
“Of course not,” I answer.
“I think I understand you a bit better, old man,” Nilla says.
“Enlighten me, lassy.” My only answer is a small smile.
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“Belhir,” Harrn calls to me, rousing me from a pretend nap.
I open up a single glaring eye. Then I say with a perfectly clear voice, no traces of sleepiness, “I am this close to switching sides.” As I slowly rise to a sitting position on the couch, I continue, “I bet Iffir would have even tucked me in.” Harrn fails to meet my gaze, looking off to the side, his head lowered. I sigh, tapping the couch a few times. “Come sit next to grandpa.”
The dwarf ambles over, following my request. Oof, not even a smile. He then says, his voice filled with tiredness and resignation, “You must find someone else.”
I stretch my back, eliciting a groan. “Why?”
“I wanted him to die.” We are both looking ahead. I wait in silence, until Harrn continues again, “I am not worthy.” The silence stretches on. Harrn awaits a reply from me. It won’t come. Not just yet. He squirms. “I could have killed her. If you weren’t there...” A small sob, makes his way out. Slowly, Harrn composes himself, his next words coming out as a hiss, “I wanted to hit him until there was nothing left but blood on my fists.”
“What defines a person? Their thoughts, their actions, or their potential?” I ask.
“I... I don’t know. Does it matter. I know what I am. And I am not the person you are looking for.”
“Everyone is capable of evil acts. Some more than others, incomparably so. How long would it take for you to be stopped if you decided to destroy this city? Eventually, you would be. But during that time, what could you accomplish?”
Harrn utters back in revulsion, “Accomplish?”
“Potential. Potential for evil. Potential for good. Do I judge you on your actions? On what might happen? On what you are capable of? How many possibilities are there? Infinite. On which one do I act? The best? The worst? Both? Everything in between? I ask myself these questions every day.”
“I can’t do what you require of me.”
“Yes, you can. Because you know it is the right thing to do. One decision at a time.”
“Why do you have so much trust in me? Just a while back, we were nothing more than strangers, unaware of the other’s existence.”
“Old man intuition. You’ll get it when it’s your time.”
“Please, Belhir. I need to know. Why?”
“I might have been a stranger to you, but you weren’t a stranger to me. I will tell you the rest when the time is right, so until then, as I have put my trust in you, I ask that you put your trust in me.”
Harrn finally turns his head to look my way. I meet his silvery eyes, glistening in the low light. He nods. Then he looks away again. “What if you are wrong about me. What if all this amounts to one powerful dwarf replacing another. What if I don’t even know myself.”
I chuckle softly. “Then I will stop you.”
Harrn exhales. With his breath leaving his body, so does an enormous weight, his back straightening and his head rising. He stands up. “I believe you will. Thank you, Belhir. Huh... I don’t think I’ve thanked you before. It might be long overdue, but I hope you know it’s sincere.”
“Aye, I know.”
“I’ll let you go back to sleep.”
Before he can leave, I address him, “Harrn.”
“Yes, friend?”
“Thank you, too.” He is momentarily surprised but then smiles, wholehearted and pure.

