Scarlet POV (June 2021)

  I Feel like crap. Why do I miss him this much? I must stay away from him I must stay away from him. I never felt betrayed by myself like this before.

  Should I forgive him?

  Well even if I do he will play along with me and hurt me , I ain't gonna let him control me , no chance. He better understands his position and stays without crossing the line, I better teach him that with less talking and ignorance he will soon understand his mistakes.

  Don’t you love him?

  I do. But not anymore. He better learn his lessons before addressing me or anything related to me.

  Pathum: Good morning sweetie!

  Scarlet : Morninhh!

  Pathum : Aww hehe! Is that greek?

  Scarlet : What?

  Pathum : Morninhh?!! Hehe

  Isn’t he so adorable?

  Shut up! Don’t fall for his tricks!

  Scarlet : Whatever! Don’t think you are funny for a second. You may think you are funny but not for me. ??

  The old fool of me would have cracked for that but not me.

  Pathum : Scarlet! Scarlet! Scarlet!

  Ugh stop trying to be funny it is only annoying the heck outta me.

  Scarlet : What do you want?

  Pathum : You know what I want darling!

  Scarlet : Oh do I ?

  Pathum : yes

  Scarlet : I don’t know what you want.

  Pathum : You absolutely knows what I want ma’am!

  Scarlet : I don’t know thats it.

  Pathum : You wanna know the answer?

  Scarlet : No!

  Pathum : Oh comeon don’t you really wanna know what I want? You were the one who asked me?

  Scarlet : Ohkay just tell me.

  Pathum : YOU!

  Scarlet : What do you mean?

  Pathum : Your answer.

  Scarlet : I don’t understand.

  Pathum : I want you darling girl. That’s what I want why can’t you understand that ? Hehe!

  Scarlet : What i don’t understand is why you can’t understand that I GOT NOTHING TO DO with you. Just leave me alone it is stressing me so much and making me so uncomfrotable when I know there’s this one guy who want me to fullfill his lustful desires!

  Pathum : OMG ! ?? you did not just called me that? Why scarlet why? You did not just said that I have lustful desires for you and most importantly you just called me just a random guy, just a stranger. Please I know I have hurt you badly but this is so difficult. I know I had anger issues and took them all on you but Scarlet this is not just a little thing. You called me a lustful person when all I want is to give you a happy life and give you everything that you heart desires and what my heart desires is to see you in happy tears and full of joy. I don’t have bad intentions you know that Scarlet. Why would you talk to me that way? I did everything good for you but you only remain to be with the little mistakes I did for you. Why is that scarlet? Don’t I deserve to have some love from you after everything I have done for you? Why can’t you just give me some love? Am I that unlovable?

  Scarlet : Stop playing the victim card. You aren’t the one that is being used here!!

  Pathum : ??

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  I didn’t replied to him. He did not stop sending me more messages trying to get me back into his cage. I pretended like that I don’t have any feelings towards him but it was so difficult to just ignore him completely because a part of me was dying inside for treating him the way I did.

  Maybe a taste of his own medicine might wake him into his reality.

  After hundreds of messages I finally decided to text him.

  Pathum ; why are you doing this to me ?

  Scarlet ; doing what?

  Pathum ; ignoring me?

  Scarlet ; I don’t .

  Pathum ; don’t lie sweetie, what did I do for this?

  Scarlet ; stop the drama

  Pathum ; I am going to freaking die. Then you will stop doing this.

  Scarlet ; don’t even think about it, mr.selfish

  Pathum ; I want to die sweetie.

  Go die then! For God’s sake.

  Scarlet ; it’s your fault!

  Pathum ; please comeback to me ! don’t do this, please I cant do this, I cant anymore. I cant live without you, don’t do this scarlet please love me again.

  Scarlet ; you ruined everything, I can't help you.

  Pathum ; don’t you even feel sad? Sorry for me?

  Scarlet ; I don’t know.

  No sweetie it hurts like hell seeing you in pain, I just want to help but I don’t know how. I can't help you the way I helped you before. I am extremely sorry, Pathum.

  But why cant I even say it to him ? why am I even living? Why can’t I convince him or atleast be kind for him?

  I don’t know but it is he who started this mess and threw us apart and he doesn’t deserve my forgiveness as much as he deserve it.

  I am confused. What should I do? Should I just pretend like nothing happened? Should I just pretend that my stomach and intestines aren’t feels like they are being ripped apart. Should I not tell him and let him comfort me? Why not console him and tell him that this all for the better days ahead of us?

  But do I See a future where he is there with me?

  I don’t know.

  Pathum : Please would you never change your mind

  I wish Pathum! I wish

  Scarlet : Never!

  Pathum : What about the future we build?

  Scarlet : You ruined it Pathum. You ruined it.

  I hate you for that!

  Pathum : Please don’t speak that way, we can fix it.

  Scarlet : You are wrong.

  Pathum : What sweetie?

  Scarlet : There’s no ‘we’ anymore.

  Pathum : Please don’t talk this way please, I cannot do anything without you. Please give me one more chance I will prove that I am worthy of a chance. I am not a monster. Please trust me.

  Scarlet : Trust you?

  After all the things he did he had the nerve to tell me to trust him? I can’t believe him.

  Pathum : You act like I am the worst thing in this planet. ??

  Scarlet : It’s your fault. Don’t try to put it on me now. And most importantly stop acting innocent you aren’t after all the things you did.

  Pathum : I am going to die.

  Scarlet : Don’t even start.

  Pathum : No I am serious, you say it’s all my fault so fine I understand it is my dang fault. So let me die peacefully so you can live happily.

  Pathum please

  Scarlet : Hmm…

  Pathum : So good bye then… anything you wanna say before I go? ??

  He is not serious isn’t he? He can’t be. Is this really the final moments? Please no it can’t be. He is not serious .. he just can’t do that. He can’t be that stupid.. He can’t be that selfish. He can’t leave me alone in this world?

  Gosh why the heck would i even worry if he’s gone? I don’t care. If he wanna die let him. I am not going to stop him. Whatever!

  But would i miss him?

  Pathum : Okay since you ain’t replying I will tell what I have to say.

  Thank you for everything you have done in my life

  You came into my life when I needed a friend the most and you brightened my day since day one and I cannot express how much I am grateful to you. Thank you so so much for everything you did sweetie. I don’t know when I fell in love with you but I am sure you did everything possible to keep us together. Please don’t take the blame after this. It is never your fault as always it is mine I take full responsibility of the mess I created. I don’t want to type many more because you might not care so I don’t want to.

  You are the best girl I met in my life. The very best and will always be the very most lovable in my life. I love you now, then, and forever. Please live happily, have a family, have your dream kids and forgot everything about me.

  I am sorry for every hurt I gave you. I truly loved you, it was never a lie sweetie. I am sorry for hurting you, disrespecting you, disrespecting God and your family and I am sorry for ever destroying the precious bond that existed with us. I am so sorry.

  Goodbye darling! I love you forever!

  Scarlet : Pathum. Don’t you dare.

  Please Pathum don’t even think about this.

  Please lord help me, help him. Please don’t let him do that.

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